Hi. I’m Kate and I am starting a blog to help keep me accountable on my struggle to better health.
I have been meaning to do this for awhile but as all journey’s towards “weight loss” go, I clearly needed a kick in the pants. I am really good at pretending everything is OK. When I can’t walk up stairs, it’s OK because I am “just tired” or I was not breathing correctly (HA!). When I want to eat terrible food, it is OK because I had just a stressful day… you know cause mickey D’s really helps turn it all around. I am so good at pretending that I can usually just forget that my health slips more and more into a dangerous place everyday.
But, on Monday I went to the doctor and they made me get on a scale. I am not one for thinking about the numbers (because I can pretend they don’t really matter) but here is the sad and scary truth: I currently weigh 290lbs. Honestly, this is only 10lbs away from 300, which is a HUGE deal. This is not OK. and I know it. and I need to do something about it. It is so easy to gain 10lbs and so hard to lose it, but nothing worth doing it easy.
Here is the thing, I have a goal to be healthy by the time I turn 28. I just turned 26 in July so I have some time. I know I am going to make mistakes but I am really hoping that letting people in on what I consider to be the worst news of my short life so far will be enough incentive to keep going.
I know I am already a pretty good person. I try hard and I don’t like to do wrong by anyone. This is part of my struggle. I have to reconcile that just because I don’t feel badly all the time about myself and just because I think I am awesome (sounds self-centered, but everyone should feel good about who they are) does not mean that I don’t have things to improve upon.
Here I am:
Today I am unhealthy but today is as good a day as any to make a change.